So I’ve decided this will be my last blog post here on escaping perfection. When I started this blog, it was a place for me to explore my feelings and write things down I couldn’t say out loud. It really turned into somewhere where I wrote about HIM. Sometimes I talked about love and relationships… Continue reading It’s time to say goodbye
Have you ever actually stood in front of the mirror and really looked at yourself? I honestly find this a really difficult thing to do. I hate that I am getting older, instantly I see all my imperfections. The scar on my cheek from an incident with my brother and a cricket bat, the scar… Continue reading Mirror, Mirror – what do you see?
I have often wondered why the universe seems to have such a problem with me, like what did I do in a previous life to annoy it so much that I deserve all this recent nonsense in payback? It must have been something really, really terrible. It seems, that in every situation where there could… Continue reading The universe & me
I recently finished reading a fantastic book called SUMO, which I highly recommend to everyone. The focus is on how to ‘shut up and move on’ which is of great benefit in both personal and professional situations. Within it he describes how we all have period of ‘hippo time’ in our lives where it is… Continue reading Stuck firm in hippo time
Is it human nature to always think that the grass is greener? Are we actually all essentially just about the thrill of the chase? Do we all really just want what we don’t have, but some of us are able to suppress these feelings and feel happy and content with our lot? Whilst others go… Continue reading Is the grass greener?
What has amazed me these past few weeks is the utter chaos he has caused and the extent to which he has managed to hurt and destroy people. I have kept out of the public arguments and naming and shaming, but the damage he has caused is widespread and significant. What’s more, in relation to… Continue reading The aftermath (P3)
I have come to realise a lot of things during the past couple of weeks. Firstly, I have come to accept that I will never, ever, ever understand why he did it, or how he could behave in that way for such a long period of time. I don’t think he will ever know either,… Continue reading Broken & Gaslighted (P2)
This is honestly one of the hardest posts I’ve ever written and because it’s all so raw and new, I’m going to tell you about what happened now and then next week I’ll tell you how I feel about it. Because I can’t process it all enough at the moment to even begin to describe… Continue reading Broken & Gaslighted (P 1)
I have been thinking a lot about this is the last few days. I have got to the point where I can’t just keep on existing. I need to start living again. Because I am not going to find happiness within myself any other way. I tweeted the other day that my new years resolution… Continue reading How to shut up and move on for 2019
It’s about the time of year where historically I have written an open letter to him, thanking him for making me happy, telling him how much I value and love him and basically being pretty smug that I had this amazing, beautiful man In my life. But that isn’t to be this year. This year… Continue reading Him (2018)