So I’ve decided this will be my last blog post here on escaping perfection.
When I started this blog, it was a place for me to explore my feelings and write things down I couldn’t say out loud. It really turned into somewhere where I wrote about HIM. Sometimes I talked about love and relationships in general, but essentially it was all about Him and how I felt about him and our complex relationship. Now we know the truth ( most of it), he is no longer someone who I even wish to think about. I have tried to move it on from here and write about other things but it just doesn’t feel right.
It’s time to draw a line on the past and to move on.
So I want to say thanks to you all for reading and commenting, you can still find me over on Twitter for now, although it’s probably almost time to close that chapter of my life too.
I think I still believe in love, although it will be a while until I can trust someone and let myself have those feelings, I’m optimistic about what the future will bring, I don’t want you to think that He has ruined me forever, he destroyed me for a while that much is certain, and he didn’t care. That is also for certain. But what a miserable and horrible existence that must be – not caring about the people who loved you and supported you. Deep inside, he will probably always be miserable. That’s no longer my problem and that’s a relief. I will look for someone who can give me what I need. Who can treat me with the respect I deserve. I will look for a man not a selfish and twisted boy posing as many things he absolutely isn’t and hurting people at every turn without a care in the world and then never thinking of them again.
I’m a bit emotional to be honest, it’s like saying goodbye to a treasured friend and confidant.
But it’s time.
I wish you all much love and happiness in your futures. Romance isn’t dead, but take care when searching for it, take your time, choose carefully and know your worth.