I have recently found myself on the brink of what could be a great opportunity. It’s a business one. It would require some investment and a lot of hard work BUT it could be the game changer, it could reduce my 40 hour working week, offer me some flexibility in my routine, it will increase my income, allow for some financial independence and be something for me.
But I am struggling to find the self confidence to jump in and give it a try. All I need to do is believe that I could do it and motivate myself to do my best. But even so, I am beginning to doubt whether I can even say yes.
The terrifying thing about it all is I have been totally shocked by the lack of support of some of the people close to me. Not many of them are interested in the longer term benefits, they are only interested in the strain on my time ( which is probably a bit valid as I am pretty stretched already ), they are not interested in taking me seriously and hearing all the information. They are only interested in how it might effect them.
It’s been an alarming but significant realisation.
I spend so much time being supportive of other people’s initiatives and listening and researching on their behalf and getting enough information to give an informed opinion. Why is it then that hardly anyone shows me the same in return? Maybe that is where I should find the time to invest in my business? by quitting the one sided investment in others?
I feel like I am on the edge of a period of significant self discovery. But I really struggle to make choices without the endorsement of others. I have so much fear. Fear of failure, I am probably failing quite magnificently already, at the stuff I already do. Am I completely insane for even considering adding another challenge? Is this just a blind stab at bettering myself and my circumstances? What are the chances I will actually do well at it? Maybe they are all right? Maybe I am just not cut out to do any more than I do now.
I am supposed to be near to a decision, but I just don’t know what to do for the best.
I am in a crisis of confidence. I feel invalid and lonely . And I am not sure I can see an end to it.
Who out there has just gone for it without the support of friends and family? How did you get on?