I used to think that being jealous was a complete and utter waste of time. That it was a stupid emotion and that it really has no place in real life. Because where does it get you? What’s the point?!
But As I have got older I have found myself more and more jealous. Of the lives that people lead, of the things that people have, of the opportunities.
I have had two relationships in my life where I have been jealous. At times it was all consuming. I hate what it made me, it’s just not pretty is it?
You want to know a secret? I married my husband because it was the first relationship I had in a while where I felt safe. I had no reason to be jealous, and I still don’t a decade later.
What makes us so envious of people and what they have that causes us to behave in such as way it inevitably destructs relationships and alienates the people we actually want to be close with.
Is there any solution to jealousy? Is everyone actually jealous of something, but they can just keep it to themselves? Why is it that what we have is never enough? Why do I continually find myself searching for MORE?