Do you know what I mean when I say that? it could be anything, it could be imagining a job you didn’t get, a house you can’t afford. Or it could be a relationship with someone you cant have.
If you have spent the entire time absolutely knowing it will never happen, reminding yourself everyday, trying to be sensible. Promising that you wont fall in love because you know no good can come of it, you know the sentiment will never be returned. But you just can’t stop yourself. Are you still allowed to be sad even though you only have yourself to blame?
In a relationship, there can be just so many amazing things, but then there will be one thing. one issue, one sticking point. And all the great stuff disappears. It’s not valid. It was never real in the first place. How are you supposed to move on from that? If you feel the same, if nothing has changed for you.If the issues isn’t an issue to you, or if it is not something you could change, you want to. But you just can’t. Does make a difference?
Should we be so sensible and calculated in our life choices? or should we act purely on how we feel and worry about the practicalities later? maybe this is what most of us do. Then the inevitable happens. Because that sticking point issue never goes away does it? try as we may to look past it, to mask it with one of the many many wonderful things, it will always be there. Eventually everything is going to fall apart anyway, it may as well be now.